Where do I start
Where do I stop
This red welt haunts me
My private hell will it be
Why did I do it
This fury that blinds me
How do I make it leave me
Is it suppressed frustration
That small things can trigger such emotion
It was forgiven so easily
Love so unconditional
What did I do to deserve
Let today be the last I swear
I will not deliberately hurt who I care
My hands may they be stopped before I harm
My thoughts be stopped before they turn to barbs
I don’t often pray
Don’t believe in it though try I may
I still hold my fathers death as evidence
That the Almighty’s wishes cannot be changed
And so I think why pray
There was only one time I really tried
For my little ones to be born safe and sound
And even though here they are
I often think that’s only because it was meant to be
And yet here I am before you God
Stop my hands
Still my thoughts
Help me regain my calm
I cannot bear it if I again cos my little ones such harm
